The Past Month

In the past month we have been very busy!
Jesus has gotten sick twice since i last blogged still trying to recover from the latest cold. He is not allowed to eat anything by mouth he will have another swallow study June 4, hope he passes it and we are able to start feeding him something by mouth. he will be having another surgery in the next couple of months to remove his tonsils this should help his sleep apnea. He has started on seizure medicine and so far he is handling them good, they seem to be helping.

I tried to post a video of Jesus playing with toys with his feet but it didn't work so here are some pictures.



here is how it works you put a toy close where he can kick and feel it






We are excited to say that Jesus is now rolling to his tummy again! =)




Jesus is also enjoying his Bounce toy he used to be stiff and scared and now he just jumps and jumps! here are before and after pics.







We put up and indoor swing for the kids =) they love it!







On some Esmeralda news, She started preschool, its 2 days a week for 3 hours a day! she is enjoying hanging out with other kids her age!


In between the crazy april and may snow we had a couple of pretty days and esmeralda got to play in her sandbox.


My Hubbys Birthday is May 19 but because he is in the Military we hardly get to celebrate his birthday together well anything together and this year is no exception he will be away for his birthday, so we decided to celebrate early!
(i didnt know what flavor he wanted so i got both) =)


As his gift i took him indoor skydiving!




We got a new addition to our Family her name is LUNA! :)

I want to be stronger!

This year has been a hard year and just when i think things cant get worse they seem to get worse so now I'm going to stop thinking things cant get worse, I'm going to cry, I'm going to try and talk and then I'm going to keep picking myself up and just hope i have enough strength for the next challenge.


Recently I had a miscarriage I didn't even know i was pregnant and that's what hurt so bad not letting my baby know that i loved it! i wasn't able to talk about this with many because the pain is unexplainable. Now the pain is still there and I'm hoping that writing and talking will help!

today I honestly felt like i was about to lose Jesus, he turned purple was unresponsive and for the first time i dialed 911 without knowing if my son would be alive a second later! i cant explain how much life can change in one second. Thankfully he is doing good, he is alive and happy and i cant thank God more for keeping my son in this earth for letting me have my 2 wonderful kids.

yes this year has been hard with everything from flood, to surgeries, to hospitalization and etc. but we are alive and only God knows why he didn't let us have our 3rd baby, and i will cry i will cry a lot at night when the kids are asleep then when I'm done crying I'm going to pick myself up and pray for strength for whatever comes next!

Birthday Party + Easter

WARNING: lots of pictures coming up!

we decided to celebrate Jesus's Birthday Party and Easter on the same day because my sister lives a bit far away so in order to have a great day and avoid a lot of driving we did it all in one day.
even though we took a tone of pictures there are some parts of the day that we were not able to capture we did not get pictures of the kids with there baskets and we did not get pictures of the egg hunt (just some video).

yes this did include a lot of candy! This was the snack we served during there egg coloring. (the drink was water, so one healthy thing)


Jesus was taking a nap during the coloring of the eggs.


once Jesus woke up he did get to enjoy some candy.



we started this tradition this year that we get our kids one balloon per year they are so Esmeralda got 3 this year and Jesus got one. he enjoyed playing with it.he would let it go and believe it or not he got from the first picture to the second picture all by himself he would pull it weird to get it to come to him.



We learned that Jesus does not like birthday hats :( but we cant blame him they do tend to pinch at times.


We also got to take pictures of Eric, Jesus, Esmeralda, and Viviana together in there Easter outfits. we could not get them to all smile and look at the same direction but we got good pictures. =)



We also took pictures with our kids once again my kids did not want to look were they had to but well you cant complain with what you get. :)


my sister with her family. (Freddy, Claudia, Eric, Viviana)=)



Jesus with his cake that is bigger than him.;)
(yes that is cake on his feet)


we did give him a taste of cake frosting, he really enjoyed it and tried to bit his dads finger off.:)


Jesus with all his gifts.


nope he did not enjoy opening gifts. we figured out that the reason he did not like it was because he did not like moving on to the next gift he wanted to play with what he just opened and did not like at all that i took them away to open the next gift for him it felt like a tease. that is why next year we will be doing things a bit different for him, we will open one gift let him play with it until he lets us know he is ready to move on to the next gift.


my hubby got me flowers for Easter it was sweet and unexpected:)


just because i hardly put pictures of me and hubby here is one.


today i got my hair cut not a huge difference but i love it! my hair is so thick and they were able to thin it for me. =) (I have to admit i needed some peer pressure to go and do something for myself)


Jesus is still trying to sit all on his own :)



and just because i did warn you all this post had lots of pictures here are two extra ones which i hope you all like:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Happy Birthday to Jesus! he is now 1 wow i cant belive he is already 1!
Love you my big boy! TE AMO!