My girl is 5!

Happy Birthday My Girl!

You are the best daughter that any mother could ask for! and the best big sister in the world!

Halloween in pictures

Esmeralda was tinkerbell :)

Jesus was a gnome :)

Xavier was a Monkey :)

Esmeralda gave out candy and loved it!

2 out of three ready for bed :)

Jesus got a hair cut He looks like such a big boy

Xavier is such a happy baby

now she is ready for bed
Happy Halloween everyone!!!!

will we make it...

Yes we will!!!
however Recently i have been felling a bit overwhelmed and out of breath and just like i'm not sure how i'm going to be able to put my baby boy through so many surgerys in less than a year maybe less than half a year.
We had two long days in the hospital this past week that showed Jesus will be needing his tonsiles removed they are huge and hopefully removing them will help with his sleep apnea. He also has Glaucoma luckly its on his already blind eye however we will have to be keeping that much more of a close eye on his right eye because its his only eye so i pray to God to please keep that eye safe. His hearing in his left ear is great and in his right ear its good enough not to need anything done to it! yay!! He will be needing his right testical brought back down because as he grows it is traveling up and they dont want to loose it. he will need to have tethered cord surgery (which i hear is an easy recovery :) ) This surgery needs to be done before more damage is done to his bladder and kidneys. with this said this brings us to the fact that the low lying cord has already caused damage to the nerves that control his bladder so he is not emptying his bladder compleatly because of this the doctor says she will re-evaluate him after 3 months of the tethered cord surgery to see how its all functioning and if he is still not emptying properly then she wants to do a catheter that is surgyicly placed and comes out of his belly button so that we can empty his bladder all the way properly. ( i hope and pray that this procedure can be avoided however anything to keep my little guy from damaging his kidneys....
so yes i have cried and i have prayed and i'm just going to put it all in Gods hands and focuse on the now and as one great mama told me take it one surgery at a time!
Thank you all in advance for your prayers!

Jesus Talking With his Dynavox

FOR DADDY

Papi come home so you can tuck us in bed and sing us a lullaby and read us a book :)

just when i thought

For almost a year now Jesus has been very healthy and has not been needing to go under anesthesia for anything and it was just all going so good that i thought wow i can relax and just enjoy my wonderful boy. well no not no more i hate to sound like I'm whining but i just need to vent i guess...

it all started when Jesus had an MRI to check for spinal tethered cord which the doctor said he had the results show more of a low lying so we are being referred to a neurosurgeon to see what he wants to do about this more than likely surgery, and then he didn't really pass his hearing test but its not failed where he would benefit from a hearing aid, so they want to check that under anesthesia and now at his Ophthalmology app. it turns out his eye pressure was high his left eye is 35 and his right is 30 the doctor saying she needs to have him go under anesthesia so she could check this I'm just tiered of it all i want him to be healthy i so just want to get some good news :(

just needed to vent thank you for listening

firts run

With the inspiration of some moms with RTS sweeties i decided to start running in reality i decided last month but i kept making up reasons for why i couldn't start one of the big reasons being that i had 3 kids with no one to take care of them. But today i let go of all my reasons and just went for it. i got this program c25k and i can say i see why so many people have used it with great success, i can say that there was a point in my run when i felt i was going to die(the first 2 running turns) i ran at the pace of my 4yr old and even she seemed to be having a way easier time running we had to stop 2x for flowers but i think that we did great. at the end of our run we stopped at the park then came home to play with water it was a good time i hope to be doing 3x a week although i have decided that in order to make it a better workout for me i will be doing 2 of my runs during the time Esmeralda is at school and only one with her!



i would like to thank my sister and her hubby for this awsome jogging stroller :)
xavier is still a bit small so i put a towel to help support his head.

Esmeralda dosnt even look like she got tierd

i was huffing and puffing the whole time